Need 2 Vent.. same shit same matter same me

Hey look at me Think back and talk to me Did I grow up according to plan? And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do? But it hurts when you disapprove all along And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't pretend that I'm alright And you can't change me Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect I try not to think about the pain I feel inside Did you know you used to be my hero? All the days you spent with me Now seem so far away And it feels like you don't care anymore And now I try hard to make it I just want to make you proud I'm never gonna be good enough for you I can't stand another fight And nothing's alright Cause we lost it all Nothing lasts forever I'm sorry I can't be perfect Now it's just too late and we can't go back I'm sorry I can't be perfect Nothing’s gonna change the things that you said And nothing's gonna make this right again Please don't turn your back I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you But you don't understand...

Same shit, diff time zone.
This was a message I just discovered and it was in the year 2008. I was pretty down as usual, and my friend "I" came to talk to me. Now I do miss him a bit, this remind me that i haven't talk to him for more than 2 years, probably I pissed him off that night. *Sorry* i gotta apologize for all my dearest friends who came to me when i was down. I really can't pretend to be the NICE-MAG. so please forgive me for acting like an ass/ or the crying baby. (just like the picture above.)

熊 says: (3:26:03 PM)
hey
美姬 says: (3:26:16 PM)
sup
熊 says:(3:26:35 PM)
um...
熊 says:(3:26:42 PM)
i dont know should i say it
but a...
熊 says: (3:27:08 PM)
I dont think critizing ur parent in public is a good idea
they will be very sad...if they know it
熊 says: (3:27:45 PM)
they probably nv know...
but....it is pretty sad if u put urself in their position
美姬 says: (3:27:59 PM)
ok. whatever. (- Mag: dude, that's why i m using english. lol -)
熊 says: (3:28:21 PM)
yeha...
if u dont like it ...just ignore it..
熊 says: (3:28:26 PM)
i mean what i said
美姬 says: (3:29:23 PM)
i m not going to take back watever i said. so dont care and tbh i m v frustrated now.
熊 says: (3:29:42 PM)
just cheer up
美姬 says: (3:29:58 PM)
can u cheer up now?
熊 says: (3:30:06 PM)
it is weird why u still didnt get used to it
熊 says: (3:30:08 PM)
me cheer up ?
what do u mean?
cheer up for u?
美姬 says: (3:30:34 PM)
.....y for me
for wat u ve been thu
熊 says: (3:30:50 PM)
oh.....
ic
美姬 says: (3:30:53 PM)
it's not get used to it
熊 says:(3:30:53 PM)
i got what u mean
熊 says: (3:30:59 PM)
no..i cant
haha
美姬 says: (3:31:23 PM)
he told me everyday i m so freaking old and i got no time to play/ or try around
美姬 says: (3:31:27 PM)
sigh.
美姬 says: (3:31:35 PM)
watever. i dont really want to talk abt him
熊 says: (3:31:41 PM)
well....if this case
then....u should keep in mind that
there is at least one person is going thought sth much shitty than urs
熊 says: says: (3:31:45 PM)
i guess.
美姬 says: (3:33:24 PM)
i only know i m in hell now
熊 says: (3:33:35 PM)
well...
u are my fd and i dont want to see sad
but i guess there is nothing i can do
熊 says:(3:33:35 PM)
so...
熊 says: (3:33:39 PM)
good luck
hope they will be better to u then
美姬 says: (3:34:18 PM)
i think never. whatever i did is wrong, whatever i did is not enough.
熊 says: (3:35:51 PM)
then i hope u get used to it

So I guess.
This will never end.
and I have find a way to end it.

I am sorry I can't be perfect.